My man, he watch that… that thing, you know? Picture show, move move, woman wear no clothes. He watch it all day. I see, I say, “What you see?” He say, “Nothing, nothing.” I know he see that woman. Why he watch?
He always on that phone. Click click, watch watch. I cook, he watch. I clean, he watch. We eat, he watch. I say, “Eat your food! Food get cold!” He say, “Okay, okay,” but still watch. That boyfriend watches porn, always.
He No Like Me Anymore?
He no look at me. Only look at phone. Before, he hug me, kiss me. Now, only phone. I ask, “You no love me?” He say, “I love you, I love you.” But he look at phone. I think he love that phone more. Boyfriend watches porn, no time for me.
I see other woman, young woman. They pretty, wear nice clothes. I old now. Skin not good, hair white. He see those pretty woman on phone. He no want me. I cry, he no see. He watch phone. Boyfriend watches porn all the time, he forget me.
- He no talk to me much.
- He no laugh with me.
- He always want be alone.
- He hide phone from me.
- I sad, I lonely.
What That Thing Do To Him?
That thing on phone, it bad. Make him different. He no same man I know. He always angry, always tired. He yell at me, for nothing! I say, “What wrong?” He say, “Leave me alone!” Boyfriend watches porn, it make him mean.
He no work good. Boss call, say he late, he no focus. He lose job maybe. Then what we do? I scare. That thing on phone, it ruin him. Boyfriend watches porn, it ruin our life.
I remember, before phone, before that thing. We happy. We talk, we laugh, we walk in field. He hold my hand, say I pretty. Now, only phone. He forget me. Boyfriend watches porn, it take him away.
I Want Old Him Back
I want talk to him. I want tell him, “Stop that thing! Look at me! I your woman!” But I scare. He maybe yell, maybe angry. But I must try. I want my old man back. Boyfriend watches porn, I must stop it.
Maybe I talk to his mama. She good woman. She know him long time. Maybe she help. Or maybe his friend, that big man, he strong. He talk to him, make him listen. Boyfriend watches porn, we must help him.
- I try talk to him first.
- If no work, I talk to his mama.
- If still no work, I ask his friend.
- I must save him from that thing.
- I must get my man back.
Maybe It My Fault?
Sometimes, I think, maybe it me. Maybe I no good woman. Maybe I no pretty, no fun. That why he watch that thing. Boyfriend watches porn, maybe I make him do it.
But I try. I cook good food. I clean house. I try look nice. But he still watch phone. Maybe it not me. Maybe that thing too strong. Boyfriend watches porn, it like bad spirit, take over him.
I no know what to do. I pray. I ask God, “Help him. Help us.” But still, he watch phone. I cry, I sad, I lonely. Boyfriend watches porn, it break my heart.
I No Give Up
But I no give up. I love him. I remember good times. I remember his smile, his laugh. I want that back. I fight for him. Boyfriend watches porn, I fight that thing.
I talk to him, I talk to his mama, I talk to his friend. I do anything. I no let that thing win. I get my man back. I save him. Boyfriend watches porn, but I stop it. I make him see me, love me, like before.
It hard, very hard. But I try. For him, for us. I old woman, but I strong. I fight. I win. Boyfriend watches porn, no more. He be my man again, just like before. I make sure.
